Facing Fear

Wow!.....
It has been a long time since I have been here. I have been really working hard on my recovery. I have been given trust back from my Mom. She helped me to buy a car and I also got a job. All things come in time if we don't rush them.

I can't believe the struggles I have come through. I took my six month key tag from CA the other night. I was holding it in my hand and mesmerized by the two words. I took a moment to reflect on the past six months of change in my life. I have grown into a person I really love.

The disease of addiction take control of every aspect of your life. We begin to make changes in ourselves and eventually the family and friends that we hurt so much begin to forgive us. Good things started to happen in my life and I have never been happier.

I am doing my best to live in God's will and since I have been doing that I have nothing to want for. God IS taking care of me. He really is in control. It hasn't been easy to do but I pray every day for Him to take control of my life and help me live. He has given me peace.

I stood up in church today in front of all those people and gave my testimony. What an incredible experience that was. I overcame a fear of mine. I have heard in recovery to face your fears to put them behind you.

I am making some great plans these days. I am looking forward to seeing how my plan manifests in my life. I have changed everything about myself. Or maybe I have found myself. I have been lost for so many years and now I feel like a new person. I love it!