Looking Back

Yesterday.......
It was a year ago that I nearly lost my life.
Today......
I am free from the bondage of the past.
Tomorrow.......
Will be a new beginning.

I have been in recovery for almost nine months. I have had a difficult stuggle the last few months but I am on my way to where I want to be and thank God I am not where I used to be.

My life has changed so much in the last year. Today I have clarity in my mind as to the extent of the abuse I have suffered. The crack was only to cover up the pain and void I felt inside. Today I am happy. I still struggle with life's challenges but I am working my program of recovery and learning just how beautiful life is.

I am almost finished my step seven and moving on to step eight. I remember my sponsor saying months ago, do your steps and you will learn so much about yourself that you didn't even know existed.

Today I accept that I am an addict. I cannot blame anyone else for my addiction. I am powerless over people, places and things. The only person I can change is me. I cannot control circumstances, I can only make decisions. Instead of reacting to situations I am responding to them. It makes life so much easier to live.

I am so grateful for the life I have today. I used to wish to die. I almost died at the hands of my husband. Today I am praying for life. I didn't know how good life could be until I came to recovery.

There is life outside of the bondage of abusive relationships. There is life outside of the bondage of addiction. God, can and will change us if we let Him.

A New Year Means New Beginnings

I just celebrated my seven month birthday free from drugs. I can't believe how healthy I feel these days. So many things are going well for me. It is just like they promised when I started attending 12 step meetings.

Life does get easier and tomorrow is always better than today. I have made some huge changes in my life in the recent months. Ever since I came back from treatment I have decided to live. I began going to bible study and church ever Sunday. I am maintaining a close relationship with God and seeing how He is revealing Himself to me through other people.

The biggest thing that I fear is living my life the way I used to. I thought I was happy before. This year is promising to be brighter than I ever thought was possible.

I met a great guy recently. I wasn't looking for a relationship. I have been working on my recovery and my relationship with God. I have been transforming my life and as a result of the changes God has put this person in my life for me because He knows he is what I need. He also knows that this guy is what I have always wanted.

The blessings I have been given are a result of doing the work and living my life the way God wants me to. He promises us great joy if we follow Him. Let your light shine. It will always lead you to the road less travelled. It is worth it! Happiness comes from within. Come out of the darkness and find peace.