Looking Back

Yesterday.......
It was a year ago that I nearly lost my life.
Today......
I am free from the bondage of the past.
Tomorrow.......
Will be a new beginning.

I have been in recovery for almost nine months. I have had a difficult stuggle the last few months but I am on my way to where I want to be and thank God I am not where I used to be.

My life has changed so much in the last year. Today I have clarity in my mind as to the extent of the abuse I have suffered. The crack was only to cover up the pain and void I felt inside. Today I am happy. I still struggle with life's challenges but I am working my program of recovery and learning just how beautiful life is.

I am almost finished my step seven and moving on to step eight. I remember my sponsor saying months ago, do your steps and you will learn so much about yourself that you didn't even know existed.

Today I accept that I am an addict. I cannot blame anyone else for my addiction. I am powerless over people, places and things. The only person I can change is me. I cannot control circumstances, I can only make decisions. Instead of reacting to situations I am responding to them. It makes life so much easier to live.

I am so grateful for the life I have today. I used to wish to die. I almost died at the hands of my husband. Today I am praying for life. I didn't know how good life could be until I came to recovery.

There is life outside of the bondage of abusive relationships. There is life outside of the bondage of addiction. God, can and will change us if we let Him.